2009-05-07
(no subject)
I have no idea when it happened, why it happened, or if it was a natural thing or not. Well, I know it was not natural.
I began journaling online three years ago. The idea of being open to public scrutiny and at the same time being shielded from the malice of my immediate, "offline" social circle made me feel accountable, protected and connected, which were back then what I needed to activate my main tool for personal healing.
I've been blogging for 3.5 years now, but my blog these days is far from what it used to be during the height of its healing powers.
Now, I just think over and over again if it's wise enough to "replace" the last post, so wise, so inspirational and so supernatural, with mean, petty and victim-minded whining. I've lost the ability to ride Time.
I guess my blog has grown too important.
Self-importance, I learnt by observation, is the main source of self-destruction, isolation and paranoia. I won't let this happen with me.
Dreamwidth is a new beginning for me, and I appreciate that.
Of everybody who follow my regular blog, only![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
khrysso is here on Dreamwidth. I trust he'll respect my space and process. He's seen it work before.
Let the show begin. I'm opening my Pandora box from now on.
I began journaling online three years ago. The idea of being open to public scrutiny and at the same time being shielded from the malice of my immediate, "offline" social circle made me feel accountable, protected and connected, which were back then what I needed to activate my main tool for personal healing.
I've been blogging for 3.5 years now, but my blog these days is far from what it used to be during the height of its healing powers.
Now, I just think over and over again if it's wise enough to "replace" the last post, so wise, so inspirational and so supernatural, with mean, petty and victim-minded whining. I've lost the ability to ride Time.
I guess my blog has grown too important.
Self-importance, I learnt by observation, is the main source of self-destruction, isolation and paranoia. I won't let this happen with me.
Dreamwidth is a new beginning for me, and I appreciate that.
Of everybody who follow my regular blog, only
khrysso is here on Dreamwidth. I trust he'll respect my space and process. He's seen it work before.Let the show begin. I'm opening my Pandora box from now on.